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SHAWTY*
ANGELINE WONG YK 10 DEC 1990 SAGITTARIAN ADMIN/PUB/CLINIC (: PIANIST
Screams
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Monday, December 06, 2010
darling. i wanna remember all my dreams - the moments you came to visit me. (:the last one i had was just yesterday. sunday morning. 5/12/10 in my dream, u suddenly appeared beside me when i was sleeping. scare me sia. zzz then i suddenly got up and asked "WHY ARE U HERE?!" u said "to see you lor. :)" yes, with that smile. :) love you ttm. but i had to get up and prepare for work already. guess what am i working in my dreams.. shit. KTV. -.- zzz something like kbox/party world. and im working till 2am! then u were like, okay. i'll wait for u end work, then we go eat. we smoked at my house corridor and i went off. in the end i dunno how time passed super fast. it was 2am. but my working time got extended. u were like bombing my phone with, end work le mah. im super hungry. end work le mah. im super hungry. -.- then finally i ended work. when i reached home, we quarrelled. cos u were superb hungry alr. :/ and that's exactly ur pattern, when u're hungry, u always lose ur temper. i didnt wanna wake my mom up, so i dragged u out to the corridor to quarrel. we were smoking too. dunno what we realli said during the quarrel, but i remained silent. and it was u who cooled down first and apologised. it was u who made me smile again. :) u hugged me, so tightly, and i was smiling. realli smiling. my heart fluttered. suddenly my mom came out and she saw the scene. we ran off downstairs without even waiting for her to say a word. then we walked to the coffee shop, had our meal. it was @ 848. the ntuc coffee shop. u sent me home, walking smoking and holding hands.. back to my corridor, we hugged again. this time, both of us were silent. and suddenly u disappeared. and i was awake. i was realli happy u came to me. but i was left feeling empty again... it hurts so badly... 2nd one was... i dunno how i suddenly landed up in ur room. on ur bed. i was reading my magazine as usual, u were beside me on the table, doing ur drawings. i wasnt looking at you, and u werent looking at me. but we talked. you were looking at ur drawings and asking me "so how are you?" i was looking at my magazine and answering u "okay lor. you?" maintaining your eyes on ur drawings, u said "im fine also. u take good care of urself okay..." this one was realli short. after asking me to take care, im awake. zzz :( 1st one was.. when u just left, i missed u so badly. i find ways to look for u. and got one way, from one master. but we were told, we had to keep our mouth SHUT. it was me and ale, dunno why it's ale, but maybe cos she was my xiaomei. we went through one weird long long tunnel. the walls are scary. and it's super dark. end of it, we came to a place like...hall. people were like competing, showing off. and u were like... very proudly, went up the stage. showing off ur basketball skills. we were squatting at the side. then, stupid ale, cheered and clapped for u. suddenly the whole hall went silent. and u walked towards us. that time, u dun even recognise us. ale looked up at u, and u still took ale's eyes out and play, and put them back in. stupid dream. -.- ale cried. u dun care her alr. then u turned to me. stared at me. i couldnt control myself. i cried and shouted "do you remember me?! im YK!" suddenly u just kept shaking ur head like going crazy, and cried... that's when i suddenly jumped up and got awakened. i just wanna update every dream of you. so that i can continue all these memories. i dun wan all these, to become a PAST. no, i dun wan. Monday, April 12, 2010
 Separation brings You never let me know it You never let it show because You loved me and obviously There's so much more left to say If you were with me today face to face you promised to tell me your full story one day. but u didnt. im still waiting. waiting for the day that you'll be back and tell me everything. why did u leave before me. i told you, and i warned you many times. dun leave before me, i must leave before you. i told you cos i dont wanna cry so badly. i loved you way too much... you agreed. you promised. but where are you now? gone. vanished. i cant find you anywhere anymore... no more. ):       And you never got the chance to see how good I've done And you never got to see me back at number one I wish that you were here to celebrate together I wish that we could spend the holidays together ale's birthday, remember to wish her okay. ale's birthday's tmr. we had dinner together, cooked by ourselves. went drinking last sat. were u there? we went from one plus. i stayed with them. reached home arnd 7plus. slept for awhile, woke up at 8plus and went out for work at 9am. did u see? usually when im rushing like that, u will get up from ur bed, help me to pack my stuffs, and hurriedly made breakfast for me. bread and eggs usually. bread with loads of butter. egg with milk inside. -.- i missed ur breakfast.. ): you said you were disappointed in me, cos i had good results during secondary school times. was able to get into poly. yet i skipped classes and fooled around. in the end i quit school. i debated. and u argued saying that we shall see. but u didnt stay to see how high i can climb. im already earning my own money now. i'll be back to study. i'll be opening my wedding boutique. u said u'll be one of my shareholders. but... remember how we used to celebrate birthdays together? all sort of stupid ideas. went holidays together. stayed in hotels together. i missed all these. remember there was once when we had holidays, we cant afford to go overseas? in the end we went geylang? stayed in the hotel there. for like...2 or 3 days? ky kzai. u me. then ale and yt and jayven came on one night and we drank? and ky was like going to the door and said she wanted to go toilet? but thats going out. -.- and ky vomited, but she's on the floor. her hands cant reach the basin, so yt flushed the toilet bowl and used that water to wash her hands? lol.do u remember all these... ):   I remember when you used to tuck me in at night With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight I thought you were so strong You'd make it through whatever It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever i'll always remember how we used to sleep side by side, how we hugged each other to sleep, how u put ur hands under my head and let me rest in ur arms, how u saiyang my head till i fell asleep when i went running to you and cry becos of my problems. i'll always remember, you're like my pillar of life... everything, anything, i will definately think of you. whenever im done, you'll be there for me. now, i only have all the tortoise you gave me. especially the big big super big one to accompany me. I thought we can. i thought we really can be as close until the day we have white hairs. but no, you're gone. i thought you were able to handle everything. i thought im already there for you whenever u need me. i thought you will be fine. whats wrong... i really cant. I CANT. I CANT TELL MYSELF THAT YOU'RE GONE FOREVER. and the word is FOREVER. when will you be back......... ): it's the twelveth again today... )))))): i miss you so badly. do you remember you're supposed to accompany me, go out with me, have dinner with me... come and meet me even for awhile. okay. specially to dearest val from line-
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